What Happens When You Tell God No?

Brianna Langley • Aug 07, 2018

Kwenzo’s father was dead. His mother had eight other children to support. And as the oldest son, Kwenzo couldn’t just watch his family struggle.

Ever since high school, he’d wanted to be an electrical engineer. It wasn’t just interesting. It could provide for his family!

So when God called Kwenzo to a livelihood of ministry, he resisted.

What about school? Kwenzo thought. How can I take care of my family on a minister’s salary?

But then came the dreams.

A Savior He Had to Follow

Kwenzo was in high school when he met Jesus. A friend invited him to church, and Kwenzo loved the experience.

“When the pastor was preaching about Christ, I was hearing about something new that I’d never known,” Kwenzo says. “Like, in Christ there is peace, Christ forgives and things like that.”

He asked his friend if he could come the next Sunday.

The following Sunday, the pastor preached on Romans 3:23 , and Kwenzo knew what he had to do. He accepted Christ that same day.

Then came the call that Kwenzo didn’t want to hear.

A Call to Give Up His Dreams

Kwenzo was already on track to become an electrical engineer, so, when he felt God calling him to ministry , he resisted.

Sometimes, God spoke to him in the form of a dream.

Once, Kwenzo dreamed he was in a church service. A friend came up to him and said, “Hey, why are you trying to run away from the Lord? Because I can see that the Lord has put something in you and called you into ministry.”

When Kwenzo woke up, he immediately asked God to confirm whether his dream had been a true calling.

When Kwenzo went to church later, the pastor asked to lay hands on Kwenzo.

“He told me that he could see God put something on my life to share the Gospel with other people,” Kwenzo says. “And even then, I didn’t take that so seriously because that’s common today. People will just come and say, ‘God has called you. God did this.’ But perhaps He did not.”

Gradually though, Kwenzo began to sense that these dreams and encounters weren’t just coincidences.

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Recurring dreams convinced Kwenzo that God wanted him in ministry. But Kwenzo refused to give in.

Kwenzo started having recurring dreams that he was a preacher, but blind.

In the dream, Kwenzo said, “People would have to lead me to the podium and then take me back.”

That’s when it really hit Kwenzo — there was a task God wanted him to do.

But Kwenzo couldn’t let go of his plans.

He just kept thinking about his mother and eight siblings. He knew firsthand the financial hardships they faced. And a career in engineering could help much more than a career in ministry could.

“I grew up struggling, and even when I’m old, I’ll be struggling,” Kwenzo prayed. “So, Lord, I can’t do it. Please choose someone else.”

Reluctant Bible School Student Transformed

Kwenzo went to a local university and picked up admission forms for an electrical engineering program.

And in an effort to get God off his back, he also signed up for monthly classes at Zion Bible College. That’s where he met TEAM missionary, Dr. Brett Miller.

“[Brett] used to just come to school just to come and sit and chat with me, give me advice, ask me questions,” said Kwenzo. “Like, ask me why I’m confused.”

Kwenzo says Brett and the other ZBC teachers taught him things he never knew about leadership, ministry and personal spirituality.

“As you continue to attend their classes, you develop that intimacy with God and understand the Scriptures so that, when you’re given a chance to share, you are able to preach what the Scriptures really say,” he says.

The biblical knowledge Kwenzo gained through ZBC propelled him to share the Gospel confidently at school, and even preach in his home church from time to time.

All the while, Kwenzo’s strange dreams continued — until one night, he finally broke down.

Half Hearted was not Enough for God

Once again, Kwenzo dreamed he was the blind pastor. But this night, he decided not to fight it.

“I [woke up and] started to pray and say, ‘Lord, let Your will be done,’” Kwenzo says. “And that same night, when I prayed before I slept, I was like a normal person. … I could see everything.”

It was the confirmation Kwenzo needed.

He prayed. And then he put his admission papers for the engineering school aside.

Kwenzo enrolled as a full-time student at TEAM’s Swaziland Evangelical Bible College — and he hasn’t looked back since.

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Once Kwenzo accepted his call to ministry, God provided everything — from Bible school training to food for his family.

Kwenzo’s teachers saw his obvious gifting and got him an internship with his former school, Zion Bible College. He took classes at SEBC during the week and taught them at ZBC on weekends.

As for Kwenzo’s family, the Lord provided sponsors to meet all their needs.

“They thought I would be the one who would be responsible for the family, but the things they seemingly hoped I would do, God is doing now with His provision daily,” said Kwenzo. “They’re in school. They have uniforms. We have food on the table.”

Kwenzo is Ministering Because of You!

Thanks to you, Kwenzo is now set to graduate SEBC this November! His dream is to become a leader in a Swazi church and share the Word from the pulpit.

“It has changed my life in a very positive way, being at SEBC,” says Kwenzo. “And I see the future is very bright. I see the Lord opening so many doors just to preach the Gospel to His people.

Thank you for making it possible for Kwenzo to receive the training he needs to pursue God’s call in his life. You may never know how many souls will be blessed because of you.

By Megan Lunsford 23 Apr, 2024
When seeking to serve cross-culturally with an authentic love for others, there’s no better example for us than Jesus. If we sat around a table and threw out the question, “How do we love like Jesus?” I think we would have several commonalities as we respond. For example, Jesus loved all people right where they were. He loved those who were deemed the least, those hardest to love, or those who were His enemies. These are all beautiful realities of the heart of Jesus. When we step into relationships, it can be easier to take on the warmer, more gracious gestures of Jesus’ love, especially in cross-cultural relationships. Think about it––when doing life with those who look and act differently than us, we are already out of our comfort zones and would rather keep things as simple and familiar as possible. But there are other facets of Jesus’ heart we often overlook that can transform us and others even more into His likeness. Jesus is love because God is love. Everything Jesus did was out of love; it’s the mere definition of who He is. As followers of Jesus, He calls us to the same: “Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.” (1 John:7-12) Every display of love we offer to others is an opportunity for them to encounter the ultimate love of the Father. That’s a pretty big deal! In this article, we’ll look at three expressions of Jesus’ love that we tend to overlook when engaging others cross-culturally. (Next month, we’ll look at three more.) 1. Jesus loved sacrificially. Everywhere Jesus went, crowds followed Him. We even see times in Scripture where Jesus had plans to step away for time alone but those who were hurting found Him and He had compassion on them and stayed with them. Can you imagine rarely having any time to yourself but, instead, constantly being surrounded by crowds of people wanting help from you? Jesus loved sacrificially. He welcomed all who came to Him with love and compassion, never turning anyone away. “When He saw the crowds, He was moved with compassion for them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.” (Matthew 9:36) In the same way, we can make room in our lives for Jesus to bring sacrificial interruptions which, in His eyes, are orchestrated encounters to transfer His love to others. It can be tempting to be so “on mission” that we are full steam ahead and find ourselves frustrated when the Holy Spirit sends an interruption into our path that we feel we don’t have time for. Or, perhaps, we have scheduled a meet-up but it’s the norm in another culture to be 30 minutes or an hour late. We anxiously think through how it will affect whatever we have planned next. While it’s normal to feel a little stressed, what if the very "interruption” standing in front of you was really a divine appointment sent by God? Or what if that person running late experiences how peaceful and gracious you are in adapting to their culture and therefore, they can encounter a beautiful display of Jesus’ love? To truly represent Christ, we should remain ready and willing for each assignment the Lord sends into our path, no matter the cost or how much we will have to re-route our day. He is always a hundred steps ahead and will work all things for His glory and our good. 2. Jesus loved by discerning each situation well. Think about how many situations Jesus had to respond to on a daily basis. We read in Scripture that there were lines of people waiting to be healed by Him, talk to Him, hear His teachings, or simply touch the hem of His robe. Jesus was fully dependent on His Father to discern each situation before addressing it. “Most assuredly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, but what He sees the Father do; for whatever He does, the Son also does in like manner.” (John 5:19) Another temptation we can have when in a relationship with those God has sent us to is to think we already know the solution or what God wants to do before we’ve even asked Him. We believe we are full of knowledge, so we just pull from the bank we have stored within and go with it. However, when we access what is familiar to us as our default, we risk missing out on a God-given solution that might truly be the key to unlocking whatever challenge is in front of us. What does this look like when interacting with others? We can simply ask, “God, what is on Your heart for the person standing in front of me?” Then we listen and respond as He speaks. When we make it a daily habit to pause and hear God’s heart for each situation before responding, we are guaranteed to be effective in loving those around us. He knows the heart of every person that will cross our paths. Imagine how impactful we can be if we first lean on His wisdom and discernment before moving forward. 3. Jesus loved by speaking truth. Most of us are familiar with the story of Jesus and the Samaritan woman at the well. If we are honest, this conversation makes us a bit nervous as none of us would be comfortable with Jesus calling out intimate details of our lives that we would prefer to hide. But Jesus went further than just airing her dirty laundry. He offered her the hope of the Gospel and a relationship with Him - a divine fulfillment that could never be found in an earthly relationship. Jesus modeled a powerful example of loving others well cross-culturally. He took the low place and spoke truth, truly out of love––speaking to her heart from His. Like Jesus, our goal in sharing the truths about Him and His Word is to bring hope and satisfaction through Him alone. When we speak truth from Scripture, we are calling others higher into all God has for them. The tricky part here is we should avoid speaking truth if it isn’t first fueled by compassion. If it merely comes from a place of judgment, condemnation, or self-righteousness, it will fall flat 100% of the time. But if it truly comes from love, you are likely to not only win a heart back to the Father but, like the story of the Samaritan woman, even an entire village! If you see someone living outside of God’s best for their lives, ask God to show you your heart before engaging theirs. Once your heart is properly postured, you can speak truth out of an overflow of God’s love and trust Him for a transformation in their lives.
By Suzanne Pearson 16 Apr, 2024
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